Sorry for asking so many questions . Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences. I feel much better knowing that others have had to start/stop and have been doing emdr for a while. I read things and it seems like some just go and do it and thats it. It's funny you said that you feel like you suck the life out of people. I feel that way too. I will talk to my therapist and continue to decide if it is best to do it. If I do maybe I will play around with the whole safe place until I find something less upsetting. The part about the slip with SI was confusing, i meant do I have to wait to try EMDR now that i self harmed? like that shows i am not ready so even if I decide yes i want to try emdr again I cant because I cut. I was doing a lot of thinking out loud I suppose, probably best to ask her that one.

Again, thank you very much.